The First Step

It's only May of this month, and yet I feel like I am changing into a totally different person. I feel like I'm making changes for the better- figuring out who I am and what I want.

I always want to write, I want to put my thoughts on paper or screen I guess. It's time to stand up and let the world know who I am.

I want to be a good person and I try my best to be kind to everyone I come in contact with. Some days are more trying than others and some people are more difficult to connect to than others. Some people are just so full of negativity and they are just oozing unhappiness. Those are the people I want to stay away from. I don't need the toxic people in my life. For too long I marinated in the unhappiness.

Now it's time for me to push all the meaningless, tiny, pointless negativity and see through to the bright and sunny good things. Instead of focusing on the pouring rain all day, take a moment to relish in watching the rain while I read a Kindle book. Take a page from my kids and jump in puddles instead of getting upset the bottoms of my pants are wet.

I am almost 30 years old, why does turning 30 make me so nervous? What does 30 change? I can still love silly leggings and coloring in dirty word coloring books. I'll still love organizing my closets and eating spaghetti Os.

I have some things on the horizon that I want to achieve. It's time to be a good person, move past the anger and rage and unhappiness-- I'm going to shine for who I am.. and if that means throwing on my awesome new road map Lularoe Leggings and gray Irma tomorrow.. I'm going to do it!!

So basically this is documentation of my journey to find the happy me. And along the way I'll talk about my family, my sample sized addiction, what I get in the mail and my obsession with Lularoe.